Entry 002

A venting that’s got nothing to do with Hparadisu (24ᵗʰ April, 2025)

These past three days have been long and exhausting. Everything that could go wrong, went wrong, and it felt like it sucked the very blood from my life. I wasn’t planning to vent, but today something shifted in me, an experience that was both eye-opening and deeply disheartening.

I realized that, as I am right now, I’m in a place in life where some people don’t think twice about looking down on me. The way I was treated today revealed human nature in one of its rawest forms. It hurt. Deeply. And for a moment, I wanted to drop everything and just walk away. But I couldn’t.

There were clear signs of discriminatory treatment, unequal pay, unequal respect, but I’m still at a stage where I have to grit my teeth and endure it just to survive, just to afford a stomach full of food and the roof over my head.

As much as I want to forget today, I won’t. This bittersweet moment will stay with me. And maybe, just maybe, it’ll become a part of what shapes me into the version of myself I’m striving toward. A stronger one. A wiser one.

I won’t forget. And I won’t let it go to waste.

And if I ever do forget, then it would mean that the growth I was meant to gain from this experience has reached its maximum output.