Entry 001

Emotional frustration at its peak (21ˢᵗ, April 2025)

Let me vent one thing first:

WHY THE HELL ARE THERE SO MANY DIFFICULT WORDS?!! WHAT THE HELL IS A CHILD THEME? HOOK? ACTION? FILTER? LOOP? SHORT CODE? REST API? FILE MANAGER? FTP?

THEY MIGHT LOOK LIKE EASY ENGLISH WORDS BUT I’M TELLING YOU, THAT’S NO ENGLISH!!!

UGH! MY HEAD FEELS LIKE IT’S ON FIRE. I CAN SMELL THE SMOKE!

Ahem….

The idea to document this process came to me right as I was about to sleep. It was already 3 a.m., and I couldn’t wait to bring it to life. My head was buzzing with thoughts, layouts, designs, how to make it feel alive. I planned it all in my mind, until sleep finally took over.

I woke up thinking about how to build it. But I couldn’t jump into it right away as I had work in the morning. As soon as I got back, though, I sat down at my desk and started prepping to bring the idea to life. My body was exhausted but my mind was fresher than ever.

Alas, my excitement soon hit a dead end. It turned out to be harder than I had imagined. I tried everything. Tabs, columns, grids, accordions. Testing, tweaking, switching things around but nothing quite captured the feel I had envisioned.

I had to take a moment of silence and give a respectful salute to all the professional coders out there. Honestly, I’d love to pry open their heads and see how they manage to build all these beautiful, functional things using words and symbols that feel like they’re from another planet. Or maybe my world is just small. That’s also possible.

Eventually, I told myself to work with what I have instead of spiraling over what I couldn’t make perfect (yet). I settled on using an accordion layout for now—more of a placeholder for the bigger vision I hope to realize later.

And so, the rest of the evening, the night, and even the early dawn hours… were spent on just this.

One section. One idea at a time.

Talk about efficiency. But it’s here. It exists.

And that counts for something.

P.s. I changed it to tabs.